mine and mine alone…

hello..
seriusly, i was struggling in finding a way to start my blog.. shud i use ‘hola’ or ‘hello’ or anything else yg relevent..
but then i thought..it really dont matter, does it??

as the tajuk of this entry suggests.. it’s true..
my life as a teenager is about to end.. in less than 24 hours..
it’s not really a big deal actually..
some ppl, they may never think about it at all..
perhaps, they think that age is just number..
well, maybe they are rite..

but still,
i cant help but to have it playing inside my head..
i am really turning 20yo in just a few hours..
but..
why am i bothering about it too much??

i dont know if i’m able to explain or describe what exactly i’m feeling regarding this..
it’s just.. i feel as if it’s hard to believe that i’ve lived my life for almost 2 decades now..
how time flies..
and seriusly, memories are filling me rite now..
i can still remember those times when i was a kid..
my foolishness.. clumsiness.. how childish i was..
and reminded by those memories.. i realize that  i am now an adult…..

it never hit me before
i’ve never really given it a thought.. how i’m gonna be when i’m an adult..
before this.. i have always thought of myself as being so young.. so teenage.. so innocent..so helpless..so virgin and in need of people helping me out all the time..
perhaps, it may be due to my being the youngest child in my family..
in almost every aspect of my life.. i’ve always had other people to help me out when i’m doing something..
i guess, that has made me too dependent of other people..

but now…
out of nowhere, i feel there’s something inside me..
telling me to start looking after myself on my own..
this is my life and i need to be responsible for it..
come to think about it, i cant rely on my mom or anybody else to do everything for me all the time..
there’ll be one point in my life where i’ll have to take control and do everything myself..

wow!!
it’s unbelievable huh..
that i can actually think like that..
it’s never really my nature to be this ‘mature’ and ‘adult’,,..

before this..
i regarded everything(almost everything) to be fun and game..
and it was crucial to me to enjoy only the present in my life..
that it was okay to enjoy now, and only worry about the future when i ought to..
so i never considered about the future so much..
but now.. i think i’m gonna change that mindset..
it is also vital for me to think about how i’m gonna live my future..
or else, i might end up being ’sampah masyarakat ‘ pulak nanti..

sigh..
it seems it’s not gonna be easy for me onwards..
so many things to take care of.. to think about.. and to act upon..
no matter how hard it may get.. i’ll deal with them all..
i’m an adult now.. and thats what i need to do..

hehehe… but being and adult will not stop me from being corny and annoying..
hehehehe..
that’s just how i am..
i believe one shud never sacrifice his personality just because he has grown up..
that’s his prerogative..

so to everyone who is kind (or foolish??) enough to drop by my blog..
i assure u.. that i’m not gonna change myself just because i’m 20yo now..
it just means that i’ll have more responsibilities than before..
but still..
remained as ‘mulut neraka’ as before..
hahahahaha….

huh…
me being an adult…
what a thought!!!

alooo…

kukira sudah agak lama aku enggak mencoret barang sepatah dua kata di dalam blog ku ini..
kang kalau ditinggalkan lelamer, tak leh nak bukak pulak..(macam dulu, pasal setahun tak dikunjumgi sesaper, takleh nak bukak blog aku…merajuk ke??)…*sah2 aku dah mereng kot… becakap ngn blog…

lantak la… kalau nak dikiutkan, aku tulis blog ni pon, ibarat aku bercakap dgn diri sndiri gak.. lain la biler ader org komen…

apakah yg sedang ku repekkan ini???

well, there isnt much that i wanna write about for this entry..
just to let those who read..(adake org baca??)
those who read my blog to know… a few things yg telah berlaku dalam kehidupan pancaroba ku ini..

aku pulang dari chc, queenstown dgn selamatnyer.. (acap dengki, nak aku eksiden@ditimpa bencana during my trip… sialan!!! hahahaha…hasrat busuk mu itu tidak dimakbulkan Tuhan)

everything went perfectly well and i seriusly had a wonderful time semasa trip itu…

tapi…………

sungguh kaciwak diri ku ini…..

aku pulang dgn tangan kosong dari bersatu games….
fantats………..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what a waste of time and money tol… *aku ni mmg expert part2 ngahehkan dwet rakyat ni…. matila kalau ader pegawai MARA baca….

saitan tol!!! aku hengat boleh la menang medal untuk voleybol tu..
haram!!
ni sumer pasal kalah ngn UMSA si siluman angkasa itew…*siapla ko nizam..

christchurch definitely is colder than auckland.. byk view2 yg menarik gak.. tapi……
i still lagi suker auckland gak… *sajer nak sedapkan ati sbnanyer…

losing in bersatu games, thus went home with empty hands…mmg la mengecewakan..
tapi ader lagi satu menda yg sungguh mendisappointkan aku…
lepas bersatu, kitorang(aku, kecil=kobayakawa, nizam, matyer, solihin, wandi ngn key) gi bercoti ke various tempat kat south island tu..
kitorang gi main ski kat coronet peak, gi shotover jet, puzzling world wanaka, milford sound, buat canyon swing (aku, kecil ngn key only…yg lain sumer takde-tel dan nak sep duit)..ngn gi glaceier walk..
dan as expected (pasal aku ni picturewhore),
aku ngambik gambar dgn byk sekali tanpa segan silu dan rasa ragu2..

biler dah byk amek gambar, memory kad kamera pon penuh la..
then aku save la dalam pendrive 4gb yg aku baru beli tu..

sial nyer pendrive.. rosak pendrive tu..
taktau la aper punce tetiba nak rosak…
cha ya ba alip ya…CIBAI tol!!!

so byk la gambar2 yg ilang..
sakit ati tol aku..

berpuluh2 gambar cando ku tidak dapat di view pasal udah corrupted..
sian aku…

kesian lagi korang sumer pasal tak dapat nak menyaksikan keindahan,kecandoan,kekacakan,ke’taste’an ciptaan tuhan bernama izuan ini…
hahahahahaahahahahahahahahaha…
aku tau… ramai yg tertunggu2 aku upload gambar2 cando ku itew buat tontonan kalian di tika kelapangan……..*matila perasan cando

aku ader byk buat video gak.. lagi2 biler kitorang gi milford sound, nak tgk dolfin nyer pasal..

tapi pasal sebab2 yg tak dapat dinyatakan…(baikkan aku afiq?? tak gtau pon org ramai pasal ko hilangkan gambar2 dan video2 aku…)
video itu sudah tidak lagi dalam posessi aku…SAITAN!!!

lg satu yg aku kelakar, biler aku tgk balik video2 yg aku buat…*habisla kantoi salu feeling aznil nawawi…
muke aku mmg takleh blah.. kelakar giler..
especially tang idung kembang aku tu..
tah pe la asek nak kembang je idung ku itew….*matila honest terlampau
maybe sebab salu nau ngutuk sarah raesudin kot…*ops…
huduh2 idung dier pon, dapat tunang org matsalleh…
ko dapat ker odie???…*tak pasal2 odie yg kena…

hahahahahahaahahahahah…………….
lantak la….idungku kembang ker….
korang nak gelak ker….nak kutuk ker…..
aku tak kesah….
aku ader gak idung…..
bagi aku, no matter how bad and undesirable ur physical features are, they are still yours…
and be grateful that u have them attached to u…
especially yg natural tu… bukan yg plastik2 ok….

terima jer ar…idung kembang ke, gigi jongos ker…(sorry ye alimran…*ops….)
kulit hangus ker.. pendek katik ker..

just accept them la ok…takyah nak mbazer duit gi wat plastic surgery bagai…lainlah kalau bini ko tu datin…*ops…

that’s what God has created for us,and we ought to believe that’s the best for us,as planned by HIM…sesungguhnye,Die lebih mengetahui…surah al-baqarah, ayat tak igt…hahahahaha….
cewah… aku becakap pandai, tapi still iron rambut gak….*kantoi!!!
sekali lagi, aku ni
ibarat ibu ayam ngajar anak2 ikan catwalk…..
eh silap….
ibu ketam ngajar anak2nyer jalan lurus…

ni yg aku malas nak becakap pasal agama2 ni.. last2 aku gak yg kena balik…
dasar manusia tidak kenal erti puas….*matila takde kena mengena…

enough with that, aku ader lagi selai benda yg nak dikongsi ni…
it’s like a real miracle..
remember in my previous previous entry i wrote about my missing the critical thinking paper…
this is the miracle…
unexpectedly,my appeal( aku ngn menn ar) for the concession tu dah diterima..
unbelievably.. derang accept the reasons we gave…
suker giler aku…

so that means,menn didnt fail his critical thinking,and my grade is no more C-…
it’s B now..
so sekarang aku dapat 3A 1B…(nak gak gtau yg aku dpt 3A…DASAR!!! )… bukan 1C…

mmg miracle ar.. aku mmg tak penah harap pon derang akan terima… mmg thank God ar… if it were’nt for Your blessings and wills, none of this wudve happened…

aku raser sampai disini sahaja lah coretan daku buat kali ini…
nnt biler ku udah jumpain mood dan idea2 best,tulis ler lagi…

adios amigos… aku berambus…..