mine and mine alone…

aku baru jer balek dari western spring park.. BECA(belia cergas
auckland) tadi ada wat aktiviti lebih kurang mcm orientasi gak la untuk
student2 baru..
last year aku taktau ar ada ke tak.. tahun lepas aku mmg tak campur dak2 beca yg sememangnya alim2 belaka itu.. ops!!

penat gak ar gi sana.. kitorang makan bbq and main games ar.. okla
jugak la kan.. tapi aku rasa kitorang still tak becampur ngn dak2 junior
tu.. derang ada clan derang sndiri.. likewise la..

but i dont care.. hahaha.. takder sorang pon yg hot dak junior tu.. huahua.. aku mmg cam syial..

semalam time semayang jumaat, aku pegi awal and i actually listened to the khutbah..or they call it friday sermon here..
tak kesah la.. asalkan paham..
unlike previous weeks, the khatib wud always give his preaches in english.. sometimes in arab AND english..
but yesterday..
the khutbah was completely in arab!!
WTH??(wot the hell??)

aku mmg tak paham la apa dier becerita.. TAPI.. 
i noticed that everybody was listening to his preach very
attentively.. khusyuk and asyik dan bersungguh2.. walaupon tak paham..
termasuk la aku..
aku mmg tak paham, aku sepanjang khutbah dier aku tak tdo langsung.. aku mcm terlekat dan terpaku..
mmg aku kagum ngn cara dier nyampaikan khutbah..
sesekali dier akan selitkan ayat quran(aku rasa ar pasal dier mcm mengaji dgn lunak dan sedap sekali didengar).. dgn gaya tangan dier lagi.. sesetengah orang mungkin ada yg tak suka ngn khutbah semalam, tapi aku mmg suka.. sampaikan aku tergerak hati untuk mention dalam blog aku ni..

pastu aku pon teringat khutbah2 kat malaysia..
bukan niat nak mengecilkan atau memburuk2kan..
tapi mmg tak leh nak lawan la ngn pak arab sorang ni..
jauh panggang dari api..

aku rasa kalau kat malaysia pon mcm dier, mesti orang sumer tak tdo..
aku kalau khutbah kat msia, tak tdo tak sah..
unless kalau aku datang lambat la.. mmg takleh tdo pasal kena bdiri..

kat msia mmg mcm lullaby.. mmg nak kasi orang meleleh air liur basi agaknya..
suara tu mcm nak taknak jer kuar..
pastu khutbah baca kertas..
arab semalam tu dgn semangat dan spontan jer dier berkhutbah..
aku rasa mst dier da bertahun2 pengalaman kasi khutbah..
tapi kat msia yg tua2 bejanggut putih yg khutbah, takkan tak cukup pengalaman lg??

entah la.. aku pon taktau mana silapnyer.. mungkin kita orang melayu ni mmg jenis yg LAYU kot..
i am sad with that reality, but who am i to say anything..
kang kalau bukak mulut kata kuang hajau la.. tak reti adab budi bahasa bagai..
lantak kau la labu..

tapi dalam setandang pisang, takkan la semuanya busuk.. mungkin ada jer pak2 melayu yg bersemangat macam arab semalam tu.. maybe aku jer yg tak penah jumper..
(melayu ni ceramah politik jer bersemangat!! ops!!)..

okla.. aku taknak tulis pjg2 sgt.. pasal tak ramai pon orang baca blog aku ni..
aku nak gi main badminton pasni..
nak kuruskan badan gemok aku ni!!!
tensi2..
kenapa aku kena jadi gemok??!!
maybe pasal aku salu gelakkan org gemok kot..
perangan saitan!!
astaga…..

sampe di sini saja blog ku pada kali ni..
later~~

ps : damn!! aku tak mention pon pasal warman project ngn formulae SAE dlm blog ni.. hmm.. next time ar kot..

aku sekarang ni mmg tgh bengong.. plus biol..
dan aku mmg rasa cam nak isap rokok sekarang.. sebab2nyer aku pon tak pasti kenapa..
most probably aku sedang mengalami tekanan perasaan.. tekanan jiwa dan pelbagai lagi tekanan..
a few things happened recently and they all have made an impact on my life..
quite significantly..
i just feel like i need to do something to get away..
something stupid that will keep me from thinking about my problems..
and when i do something stupid, i will focus more on the stupidity of what ive done, and laugh over it..
that way, aku takyah nak stress2.. laughter is the best medicine..
or just do something that will harm me..
affect me in some ways..
that way, i will be busy trying to fix the damage that i may have caused
masa aku buat benda tu..

aku tau apa yg aku tulis kat atas tu macam bangang dan mengarut..
the truth is, so is my head..
its a mess inside there.. and the way ive been acting has been weird lately..
i get upset very easily.. argh!!
tension betul..
masalah2 aku yg sengal..
i know i shud share the burden with someone..
tapi im just malu..
and that i feel that no one can do anything to help..
i wish raul busuk tu is here right now..
leh aku citer kat dier..

takper2.. i believe this is how God wants to test me..
He knows me well that i will prevail His tests..
i will just accept everything the way they are..
and at the same time trying to work things out..

okla.. lain kali tulis lagi..
bye..

dugaan datang dan pergi..
just be strong and hand on there izuan..

salam sumer..
ni sekarang kat auckland dah pukol
7am.. aku cuba la nak tidur balek lepas aku solat subuh kol 6 tadi but i just cudnt sleep..
then suddenly the thought of posting a new blog came to me. so here i am typing..
actually, mlm semalam b4 aku tdo aku da terfikir nak tulis blog.. but it was already 2.30am and i just thought it wasnt right.. lagipon aku ada kelas harini kol 1pm..

tajuk blog ni pon is self-explanatory..
today i will start my first class for the new semester.. the 3rd semester.. i am not entirely excited with the idea of having to go to class and study, meeting new people and course mates.. blablabla.. they all dont interest me at all..
and the fact that i’ll be starting on my specialized field which is mechatronics kinda freaks me out.. it is said to be the 2nd toughest after biomedical… lalalalala… i so dont need to know that.. me myself cant figure it out why i chose mechatronics at the 1st place.. maybe i just wanted to challenge myself i guess..

well, recently i know someone who’s a mechatronics engineer working at temasek holings.. he seems to be doing just fine.. the fact that he graduated from university of berlin just awed me.. he’s so freakin pandai and everything.. he once talked to me about PLC(programme logic control) and i just cudnt say a word as to reply to what he was saying.. terkelu lidahku tak dapat berkata apa2.. tak paham la sengal!!! aku tak belajar lagi…
this kinda thing makes me scared like hell..
will i be able to cope up w evrthing?? lalalalala….
mmg menakutkan..
tapi i think i shud just be cool.. dont panic and just do all the assignments.. ask if ada apa2 taktau..  be willing to learna and ask questions even the stupid ones..
yeah!! thats the spirit!!!

huhu.. enuf about me and my studies for the new semester..
now im moving on the my next story..
its about BIM and BO.. when combined become bimbo..
this is a story of 2 bloody malay guys(not blonde girls) who acted so foolishly that paris and nicole would laugh their lungs out if they know this..

kisahnyer..
BIM bought a new electric frying/cooking pan where the periuk is placed on top of the electric stove… it was BO who first tried the pan..they were cooking nasi goreng..
at first smokes came out and they thought its just normal as the pan is still new.. and they waited for a few minutes but the pan is still not hot enuf to fry the nasi..
then these two BIM and BO started checking the pan and also the manuals if they had had everything right..

this is where the BIMBO story begins..
they actually placed the stove(heater tu la) inverted.. upside down..
patutla tak panas2 kuali tu.. BANGANGnyer!!!
sah2 dua makhluk BIM and BO tu mmg bimbo…
siap komplen2 lak kuali tu.. konon2 rosak la.. nak anta balek ke warehouse la.. huahuahua… ni mmg sengal takder ubat…
what’s weird about it is.. they actually looked at the meter of stove tapi dua2 tak perasan that the words are written upside down…
hahahahaahahah….
this is the story of the bimbo BIM BO….

ada lagi satu cerita pasal 4 jantan badminton yg menunggu kat rec center selama almost an hour just to know that they waited for nothing…
sengal nak mampuih!!!
masing2 bimbo tak igt yg rec center tu tutup pukol 6.30pm… tunggu la kat situ dgn penuh harapan nak main badminton after budak2 bola habes main.. last2, bila da 6.30pm nak masuk dewan nak main, org rec center tu cakap nak tutup pukol 6.30.. the news came like a huge slap on the face… pembaziran masa dan tenaga to actually go to rec center and wait… just to know that it was all for nothing…
hahahahahha…..
well, just take it as a lesson learnt ok 4 jantan badminton…. hahahaha….

okla tu.. aku rasa asma aku da datang balek ni.. aku nak pakai inhaler then try sambung tidur.. i need to be fresh and ready for my first class.. hahahahaha…
yeah.. like whatever!!!

later~~~~