mine and mine alone…

emptiness.. thats what im feeling..

i can hardly tell how i feel inside.. im not happy, neither am i sad..  i dont know what to feel anymore.. its empty.. nothing..none..zilch..zero..

but… despite the emptiness, theres a yearning inside of me..as if the inner me is screaming at the top of his lungs.. wanting something..longing for something… but the prob is… that something is still in vague shape…. what is it that i want really??

crazy i may be..insane..whatever u wanna call it.. the real prob is..why do i feel this way?? is it the stress?? stress bcoz of the workloads as a student?? the assignments, projects and tests.. i am not really sure if they are the reason of this emptiness, this uncertaintiness..*is there such word??

i think i shud stop.. what i wrote up there dont make the slightest sense at all..

dear lord, i know im not a good servant, not a good person either.. but im praying.. im asking from u now.. please.. bless me with tranquility, peace and calm.. for U are the most merciful and most gracious..

what i went thru was hard and noone else knew but U dear lord knows everything.. please forgive my sins..for i am only human and mistakes are what i do mostly..
grant me with some peace please..ameen….