mine and mine alone…

haaa…

asalamualaikum sumer…

pada ketika ini housemates aku sumer tgh bizi stadi pasal depa ada test senin ni… padan muka!! saper soh 2nd year? saper soh lahir setahun lambat.. well, except for bali, lahir 87 sama ngn aku tapi dier kena tunggu setahun lak… well, lain orang lain kisahnyer..

why the hell am i talking about my housemates lak ni… tujuan aku nak citer pasal imahlenggok tadi…

hahahaha… betina sundels tu da kembali melebarkan sayapnyer di arena pem’blog’an(is there such word?).. hahaha.. tak kisah la kan… aku pon cam baru jer tahu wanita palsu itu baru saja memulakan penulisan blognya setelah dier lama menyepi tanpa khabar, selepas pemergian adindanya..

well, actually ada la beberapa kali aku nampak dier menyibuk, bertenggek kat blog cik2 fefonens yang lain tapi pasal aku tak minat yang lelain tu, so aku tak baca blog2 tersebut, lantaran itu juga aku tidak mengikuti perkembangan unstazah imah kita..

tapi kini… what the heck right, she’s back(she’s a he actually) tapi lantak la kan… aku tak kisah tentang kecelaruan gender yang dialami oleh nya kerana pada aku apa yang di paparkan dalam blog dier tu telah outweigh the fact that she’s a fefonen..

hmm.. aku pon tak pasti samada tu compliment atau kutukan.. yang penting aku minat dier..

yesssss odie!!! aku tidak gentar dan juga tidak malu untuk menatakan minat aku terhadap blog imahlenggok.. blog dier jer… betina tu aku tak minat… jumpa tak penah, muka pon taknah tgk.. lain la kau kan odie…

terkenang2 aku peristiwa “hey dude!!” ko dgn cik imahkita ittteww!!

haaa… tetiba jer entry ni kurasakan seperti satu dialog perbualan gossip aku bersama odie… hmmm… well, its not.. i dont even know if that bitch(odie) is reading my blog or not… hahaha.. kalau dier tak baca, i’ll tell him to read it bila jumpa dier nnt..

hmm.. aper lagi aku nak bebel kat sini.. haaa…. setelah baca blog baru si imah ni, tetiba aku cam ter-berminat nak jadi makhayam kat blog aku..bley???

tapi aku rasa maybe tak perlu kot… and also i know that i’m not as creative as she is..or he is.. watever!!  hmmm… tak kisah la kan… so aku disini menyarankan reramai orang menyinggah di blog kak imah kita, pasal there is alot to learn and to laugh abt kat blog dier…

okla… sampai disini saja aku meracau kat sini…. nak pegi main tennis di asb auckland… sehingga berjumpa lagi… later~~

haaaa…. kelas da mula.. tahun ni tahun ketiga aku kat auckland ni… haih… i know things are gonna be way harder… and i am absolutely true~right… i just got an assignment yesterday, to design an analog circuit at which when the frequency of input voltage is increased, the magnitude of output voltage will also increase.. and the relation between the two should be approximately linear… and i have been thinking about it… still no idea on how to do that freakin circuit… maybe nnt2, sok2 dapat la aku jawapannya kot..

and i did try to google it but no luck, i didnt find anything that can help.. i’ll continue looking on the internet… maybe later…

hmmmm….. if i were to talk about stuffs that are happening around me, it would take me days to finish since its been so long since i last blogged… so im thinking to only mention those that matter…. and honestly, i dont think there is any…

haih… those who really know me, will know that i am not myself lately… what i mean with that is, im not as vibrant, cheerful and enthusiastic like before..its like i dont feel alive anymore.. not litereally, its just that now after so many things that i went thru… im starting to want other things in life… like… there are other things that make me happy… but the problem is that i cant get them… i am here… studying… doing what i am supposed to do.. what i have to do.. no turning back at this point, unless kalau bapak aku sekaya bapak tawfiq, or aku anak raja maybe i could just simply ditch university and go do the things that i want to do…

damn!! why the hell that i chose engineering at the first place.. i see it now.. i see how boring it is… haaaaa!!! if only i can quit…

hmmm… maybe i should stop whining and just do this SH*T.. stadi je la kan.. nak buat caner…the choice is not mine…

hmmm…. talking about choice… it occured to me once that it would be great if we could pause our lives like in the video games… say u are in a quest game.. macam prince of persia ker… jenjalan pastu jumpa onjahat sumer… sekali tetiba rasa cam nak stop jap pasal ko tgh kalah lawan ngn org jahat tu… its a good thing that u can pause the game…susah2 sgt, quit jer… or start over…

tapi in life, there is no pause button… when u are in an ordeal, there is no such thing as stopping or quitting… ko nak quit your life??? haaaa… take a knive and slit your throat.. end of story..

kalau betol2 end of story takper… ni teros masok neraka la gamaknya… and seksaan kat sana lagi la dasyat nyer kan… huuuuuu scary~~~

life is hard, superhard!!! i always think that everyday that i live, i learn something new, although it is as small as memotong bawang the right way, or melintas jalan sesak di queen street tanpa di yelled “fuck you” oleh orang M saitan itew…

haaaa… aku sungguh terdigresss… what im trying to say is…. i know that life is hard, and everday we are challenged in evry way possible… but i know that everything that i have to go thru, or things that i had been put thru… i am gaining something.. that is experience… be glad and thankful izuan!!!

orait… enough of my rantings…

may i blog again~~