mine and mine alone…

haaa… tetiba jer i woke up just now and i felt like writing a blog… the reason is still in vague shape, but it think as i go along writing this, i will then realize what is it that really made me to blogging pagi2 buta ni..

haaa… no so pagi buta actually pasal its almost 1pm now… slept at 5 last nite, main singstar.. game nyanyi2 tu… huhu… i totally rocked it… tu pasal lambat jer tdo…

haaa… i just knew that today is hari guru… tu pon pasal aku baca status member2 aku kat facebook, especially those who are doing tesl coz they will be the ones singing the hari guru song in a few years time.. and i came across my old fren back when we were in jasin, nama dier fadli… budak skema gampang ni… haha.. he mention about all the schools that he went to dari skolah tadika sampai la ke fakulti perubatan UKM dier sekarang…

and that made me pondered for a while.. have i even for once said that i am thankful to my teachers?? huuu… to literally do that, to thank them now seems like something yang tak relevent altough it is possible.. coz maybe they all dont remember me anymore… i was never the popular one i guess… haa… maybe i was a little popular…*perasan!!!

but i do really appreciate them… for everything that they’ve done… it would be so cliche for me to baca sajak lilin tu now to say outloud how much i thank them for shaping me the way i am today… but i really am thankful… and i know, their deeds shall be rewarder punya by God.. hehe..

haaa… ni lagu satu benda nak citer… last nite, before going to sleep (pukol 4.30am time tu)..i was thinking… about my life… how things turned out to be… and i compared my life now to the years previuosly… and i smiled… i now can admit that i am happy… i dont know how to explain it, but i am just happy.. rasa macam senang hati.. takder apa2 yg stressful pon.. hmm.. maybe ada pasal each time i go to class, and having to deal with sumer2 pelajaran ni… time tu stressful la sket tapi macam negligible… i think i am doing quite well despite the kesusahan2 itu… huhu.. and of coz i thank God for that.. i remember asking, praying to Him to make it easy for me, dalam kelas, dalam hidup, dalam segala urusan everyweek time semayang jumaat.. and i think ive got it… alhamdulillah….

i like to think of myself as a realistic person… and by saying this, it doesnt mean that i am not.. but i do really hope that these good things that i have now will grow, and last for as long as they can… insyaAllah they will…

right now… as i am typing this.. i am smiling… coz i am happy… so happy…. and for this wonderful life.. once again.. thank you God… huhu…