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salam..

adehai… at this very moment.. im feeeeeeling sooooo freaking bad… and kinda mad… stressed up maybe… its not a good feeling…

today was super busy.. so was the day before… and the day before… senang citer this whole week my life was like busy gila babi.. haishh.. i dont know what words to use to describe bertapa busy nyer kehidupan aku…

i only went home for sleep and mandi.. the rest of the time, i’d be at sola’s or uni.. trying to do the darn assignments…

but…

thank God that they all are behind me now.. both assignments done and submitted.. and admittedly i am so proud of myself for not giving up.. huhu.. when i first read the assignment descriptions and requirements i knew they are not easy.. scared like hell jugak la.. ditambah pulak with the constant lost of focus in Gordon’s class.. huhu.. things seemes scary.. they still do actually.. huhu..

well.. supposedly i should be feeling good and relieved having all the assignments sent already.. now whats making me feel bad ni??

heres the deal.. this evening.. i was working on the report for the real time software assignment.. and the submission of the electronic files were via the S drive.. for some very weird reason the computer i was working at didnt have winzip.. the software to compress files.. and submission required us to send compressed files of our project..

so to have my files compressed i had to ask sola’s help since he brought his laptop with him..

done with compressing.. then i submitted the files la kan.. nak dijadikan cerita.. i left my pendrive there..

well actually.. im not sure if i really left it there.. coz after submitting the assignment.. my mind just went to its dont-know-dont-care mode..

only just now i realized that my pendrive is missing.. argh!! my best bet is that its still connected to the computer i did my work at.. stupid!!

reading back what i wrote.. i honestly dont know why i went to great details in telling how my pendrive went missing.. i couldve just said i think i left my pendrive somewhere bla3…

hmm.. maybe my mind isnt really organized at this moment..

haaa… now i know what i wanna talk about.. actually tonite my frens are having a sort of haloween party.. i know haloween is celebrated on the 31 of Oct (ke 30th ha?).. tapi since the exam will start next week.. they decided to do it tonite..

and as u know.. its not haloween without costumes.. and trick o treating.. and i dont have any costume.. and TOT isnt really my thing.. so i didnt go..

but truthfully.. i wanna go.. just to mingle around and hang out.. but i dont wanna be the weird one w’out a costume… altho i strongly believe there are loads of them who dont have costumes…

ahhh.. why do i care?? my legs are really killing me right now.. todays soccer was silly i think.. it was tiring and not so fun.. haha.. dont know why.. probably because we had to devide ourselves into 2 groups..

there were so many people tadi.. close to 40 people i reckon.. and it would be funny to play soccer 20 sebelah.. padang pulak kecik jer..

so some of us played on a different field.. but it kinda sucked coz there were only like 12 people playing on one field.. and another 20+ on the other field..

i played on the smaller field with less people.. so as a result.. it was more tiring la kan.. and less fun..

haih.. why all of sudden im talking about my soccer game pulak ni.. i digress so easily it seems lately..

hmm… haaaa… now the real thing thats making me feel all stressed up.. i have remembered it.. MY LAPTOP DIED!!!

it was all so sudden.. and unforeseen.. a few days ago.. it was tuesday if i remember correctly.. i woke up that morning and the first thing i do is press the on button of my laptop.. then i went to bilik air to basuh muka or gosok gigi.. and go make my coffee..

usually by the time i get back to my laptop.. it will be ready for me la to do stuffs.. like email etc etc..

but on that morning.. something out of the ordinary happened.. i came back to my laptop with a coffee in hand and found the computer had died..

i first thought maybe i didnt press the on button correctly.. so i did again..

everything went ok…i managed to watch the latest episode of desperate housewives.. done with DH, i continued with gossip girl.. while i was watching.. after 10 mins or so.. my laptop turned off on its own..

i was like..”what the PUCK!!!”

i didnt have time to check to see what went wrong coz i needed to go to class time tu..

petang tu.. i was at sola’s.. doing the fpga assignment.. and at the same time we were watching the movie Year One on TV, connected to my laptop.. all went well at first then suddenly it died again..

i couldve sensed something big.. something really bad was upon me..

and as time passed by.. the problem persisted.. and lama kelamaan.. langsung takleh on dah..

can u imagine how i miserable i was feeling at that time.. with 2 programming assignments, each worth 15%.. and dua2 susah macam haram.. i was really out of my wits.. working in the computer lab is just not my thing..

one because the mechatronics lab is kinda isolated.. and also there is really limited number of DAQ cards of FPGA boards available.. hmm.. thats not really an excuse.. huhu..

lagipon these lads.. sola n afiqshah ni bukan nak buat keje kat lab.. and neither do i.. not when we can do the work in the comfort of our own home.. with food just a few meters away.. and a 32inch LCD for us to watch new movies like Surrogates or StarTrack.. huhu.. working in the mecha lab is just not an option.. not when we can help it.. huhu..

hmm.. since my laptop da mampos ni.. aku macam da kurang bahan hiburan.. which i think is a good thing in a way it let me have more time to study.. read notes, do problem questions etc etc.. hopefully it helps la..

right now im on epens laptop.. VAIO uolls!! glamor budak ni..

he went to the haloween party.. i saw his costume.. it was cool.. kinda..

huhu..he was wearing a black shirt with what looked like aluminium foil shreds pasted on the shirt,, with a few vertical bands.. and the word KISS on the back.. not just that.. he had his face painted white with a black star on an eye.. and also a fro wig on head..was it fro?? kurang pasti.. it was cool.. i think.. huhu..

altho this entry is already so freakin long.. i still have one more thing to rant here.. huhu..

this so called haloween party is not really of haloween.. dont make any sense?

cenggini kisahnyer.. lebih kurang 2 days before the party, Odie posted on his twitter a link that says its haram to celebrate haloween.. al muntalaq something la nama link tu..

huhu.. pastu dan2 la pulak haloween party ni jadi costume party kannn.. walaupon tema dier orang pakai baju seram2 tapi tetap bukan haloween katanya.. huhu.. lantak la.. hope they have fun.. im just too tired to go there.. and tooo tired to care.. *nak pegi gak sbnanyer tp takder baju*

aku rasa aku da penat menulis da.. the only thing i can do after this is listen music on my ipod.. or maybe watch those hindustan videos jugak.. i love the song suraj hua madham.. i dont know who the singers are.. but the song is from kabi kushi kabi gam.. and in the song kajol and shah rukh khan la yg purak2 menyanyikan lagu ittew when in real life sore derang tu takder la sedap pon.. lalala..

okla.. suker terdigress secara tidak sengaja..

ok later~~

salam..

haih.. sudah menjadi kebiasaan la kan bila aku bosan jer kat bilik aku ni sengsorang, aku akan mula tulis blog..

tadi actually i was planning to go to the gym to have my 20mins run on treadmill and do some light exercises.. need to lose these few inches around ma waist ni ha.. duh!! but i couldnt go cuz it was raining.. darn it!!

so i just stayed at home and watched gossip girl.. after that i started to get bored again.. then i pondered a lil while.. still bored..

then this idea of writing a blog about the things i do when im bored.. haha.. it seems reasonably okay to write about tht.. quite interesting..

hmm.. what is my first choice to do when im bored??  i think i’ll go for checking my email n from email then will lead to facebook, twitter dll..this will let me kill about 10 - 20 mins of time..

dulu2 i used to play flash games on facebook but not anymore nowadays.. they just got boring i guess, and i need sumthing more than jz simple flash games..

hmm.. then what else will i do.. usually when im bored n i jz washed my hair.. i’d dry my hair and get it str8ened.. huhu.. i think ive done that for the millions of times by now.. huhu.. and tht wud usually take me 1 hour..

pe lagi yg aku buat ek.. i would ponder a lot about my life.. usually thinking about the most recent events.. and do a lot of thinking.. and imagining the situation had everything gone differently.. haha.. in a way i think im practicing my imaginative skills.. *poyo*

and sometimes when im bored and i feel like writing, i’d write a blog.. sometimes i’d use my phone voice recorder and start rambling about random stuffs.. if im having a bad day for example.. or someone did sumthing nasty to me and i had noone to talk about it with.. i’d talk to myself.. and admittedly id say some pretty aweful things la.. tapi aku rasa this helps me abit.. i get to let it out.. altho nobodys listening.. atleast i feel less burdened after that.. the funny part is when 2 weeks (or more) after the recording, i’d listen back to what i said.. i’d laugh like crazy la.. and asked myself why didnt i act differently at that time.. i could have.. or maybe i should have..

kalau dulu2.. when im bored i’d buzz my frens on ym and chat with them.. but not anymore.. haha.. i have changed.. and i dont know what made me change or why i changed.. i just did.. chatting is soooooo last decade..

is it?? haha.. kadang2 aku chat jer.. tapi takder la se’semangat’ aku dulu..

haha.. i read back this post and its obvious that when im bored, i’d do silly stuffs.. like really non-beneficial stuffs.. i should use the time to study for tests.. read my notes.. or do my assignments.. look for practical jobs..

damn me!! i have like heaps of important things that i need to do but i do crappy things instead.. huhu.. taktau la caner aku nak jadi rajin ni..

maybe this is the way i should be kot.. or maybe im still young and that its not the time yet for me to act like all matured, responsible and passionate in working.. duh!! work is shit!! i hate the word work!!

as usually i’d write shit stuffs here.. but who cares.. this is a blog, not a note book or ensiklopedia (tatau eja omputeh dier caner).. its not expected to be beneficial.. its only for me.. mine and mine alone..

ok bye.. nak mandi!!

ps : bought an ipod touch.. so eager to try all of its features.. huhu..

salam..

haih.. its been several times i tried to blog.. but often i couldnt finish.. simply bcoz what went thru my mind kept changing.. and i eventually lost the mood to blog..

but this time around, i ma just write some shit.. hoping that some of it will make sense.. to me.. or maybe to others..

my life has been super hectic.. hmm.. maybe ive been busier but i dont really know how to say this.. its like heaps of stuffs.. u just dont know where to begin telling..

ok2.. one thing at a time.. my study stuffs.. this week and the coming week, i’ll be busy like shit.. this week ive got an assignment due and a test.. i cant lie.. im super scared.. thank God last nite i stayed up and got the assignment completed.. maybe not entirely.. maybe around 80% or 90%.. i still need to check with my friends what ive done.. wouldnt wanna be sooo confident when all that ive done was a complete crap..

but i am more scared of the test thats coming this friday.. one thing being that peter richard is the lecturer and ive been completely lost in his classes.. super SHIT!! i need to do my revision.. and i know its gonna be really hard.. pasal aku satu haram pon tak paham apa dier ngajar!!!

haaa.. even scarier than that is the 2 assignments coming the week after that.. its software and digital.. the two deadliest courses for me.. coz i super hate programming.. and both assignments require me to write codes and build projects bla bla bla.. adoyai!! malasnyer.. malas dan tak reti.. bangangnyer rasa diri ini pasal suka2.. mencari pasal buat mekatroniks pulak.. padan la muka kan…

wahh.. pjgnyer aku da tulis.. ni baru pasal study..

hmm.. tetiba aku da malas nak tulis da.. lantak la.. i think this entry is really like shit..

aku nak buat keje la ni.. later~~